Sometimes We Just Know

I truly believe there are moments in life when we're given insight into someone else's life. I pray for those moments. Sometimes life just goes by so fast and for some of it, I'm grateful because it feels grueling, tough, terrible...and then worth it. But during those "enduring" moments a tender mercy from the Lord is sent through a messenger, and the love felt in that moment is so pure. And deep. I have no other way of explaining it. I have felt it for other people and from other people, and without a doubt, I am a better person after every instance. I wish I could hold on to that pure, deep, true, honest, consuming love, but the world sneaks up and enduring comes back into play. I pray for those moments, too.

I want to go back in time and sit with the boy crying at lunch.

I know that I can't.

I will put myself last next time and give him a reason to smile.

I want to go back and not be so judgmental.

I know that I can't.

I will love before I think and think before I speak.

I want to go back and use kinder words.

I know that I can't.

I will remember that my words are coming from someone who bears the name of Christ.

I am grateful for the insight and the messengers in life. I hope I will always be worthy to receive them and to be one in another's time of need.

It's ALMOST Here!

SVU starts Wednesday September 22nd and like 9:00, and it's a TWO HOUR season Premiere. And then sweet sweet joy is mine because Fringe starts Thursday September 23rd!!! I am soo excited!

This Just Happened

I wrote an entire email to my drama teacher and then family catching them up on my life while sitting on the toilet. Still here....

Dear Bookmans

Oh how I appreciate thee and thy free internet. Oh it has been a rocky month without internet. As good as it has been for me not to get distracted at home, it's also frustrating when I'm running to Bookmans at 12:39am to submit a paper to a professor for class the next day. And I've got me some shows to catch up on from the summer, and some new ones coming out!!! It's getting pretty serious around here.

On a better note, I am loving (well most of) my classes! My favorites are Rituals and Performance in Theatre Arts and Advanced Dramaturgy and Adaptations (which is basically play writing). Already we've done observations of people in everyday life and done character analysis on them and we've written an adaptation to a chapter in Bram Stoker's Dracula.

School hasn't gotten too crazy yet, but it's starting to sink in that my free time needs to be chosen wisely. I got wrapped up in a painting I was doing the other night and then going to a dollar movie that I got a lil' behind in reading that is apparently essential for my eternal salvation. J/K